New Year's Day just makes me want to die.

When your sister is the pretty popular girl that can do no wrong and who everyone loves your, only choice to stand out is by going in the other direction and becoming the “quirky” “alt” sibling, listening to “hipster” music, and hanging out with boys with dangerous beards and, I don’t know, wearing a different kind of earring or something, I’m not really sure how fashion works. That’s what America’s younger sister Solange Knowles has been doing anyway, and guess what, it’s working based on the hyper-blogiventing coverage of her best-of-list darkhorse “Losing You,” and an outlandishperformance on Jimmy Fallon last night. What was so crazzzzzzy about it? She danced a little side to side step that didn’t look like it was choreographed by fashion boutique mannequin acrobats. She had a cool band (including Dev Hynes, who wrote one of our favorite tracks of the year, Sky Ferreira’s “Everything Is Embarassing”)! You know, literally the most basic musicianship concepts. But, again, when your sister is an alien empress from the planet #Swag, sometimes just toning things down a notch is enough to register as groundbreaking.——Bullett

Something about this performance just makes me happy. It’s cool without trying to be, and without that look-at-me-kind of self-awareness- which would have made it look, idk, awkward, perhaps? Oh, and that green suit. That fabulous fro. Everything. Is. Love.

Today, I left myself in a Mexican restaurant, between the two cups of coffee that I drank, the two cigarettes I smoked, the two steps I took on my way to the door. I left myself somewhere at a table, sitting, wide-eyed, still sipping coffee, still smoking cigarettes, with a cold glass of Coke next to the bowl of nachos congealing with hamburger meat fat and orange salsa.

I waved goodbye and saw myself wave back, mouth full of nachos and salsa-orange teeth. Upon a wave of affection, I thought I should run back and give myself a goodbye hug, too. But just then the yellow cab honked its bleaty horn. I sighed, put my glasses on, and walked out the door.
 

Or this. I knew so much less and so much more back then. 

To You, In Germany, A Crazy Video of the Lotus Eaters

Check out the screaming. Or not :). I wish I could be this excited about something all over again.